Saturday, November 08, 2008
Hello :D I'm finally blogging after uh, about 10 days! Anyway, PW has officially ended, since uh 5 nov where we went to hand in our GPF & all. OP was fine, though I think I spoke too fast, as always. I can't seem to slow down when talking. Still, I'm so glad that all that crap's over, with no more tiring hours of staring at words & words & doing research etc. On the other hand, though, it means that the 5 of us are no longer a group anymore ): I honestly love my PW mates alot alot. Go Supersheryl, Jazzy Wazzzy, Bazhangyyy Yanzhuuu & Autistic Jtttt! Y'all rock, really. Going through PW with them has been so lovely, despite those times where admittedly, we all know we feel like whacking each other's heads off cos everything gets so frustrating. It's quite obvious how we all have different ways of working things out, but everything has fallen in place nicely through it all (: Reading Sheryl's blog post made me feel so nostalgic after PW has ended. I'm so glad we've grown closer, plus not forgetting to mention the random & frequent periods where we get insanely hyper & start doing mad stuffs, freaking our dearest Jt out to the max, hahaha! We totally understand that it's hard for him to spend time consistently with 4 crazy girls, right. (: Nonetheless, I'm glad we did awesome ultimately. 'A' or not we don't know, but I'm sure we did our best! Yay yay much loveeee (:
Anyway! After OP on Tuesday, we had class lunch at Parkway! Then some of the girls had last min plans to go Simin Mummy's house to swim, while the rest of us went to PS to catch a movie (: The guys, uh, went LAN-ing. Vui, Peiyi, Vivian, Yvonne, Debby & I watched Sing to the Dawn, & omg, it was so damn lame. Gosh, it sent Debby slapping her forehead quite a few times, hahaha! Damn amusing. Other than the lovely singing inside the movie, Please Don't Watch It. We walked around & all, spent time talking & went to eat Gelare (: Saw quite a few RJ friends around!
Then on Wednesday, Grace Debby Peiyi Victor & I went Kbox after handing in the GPF :D Gosh, it was funnnnn! Too bad time passed too fast & we didn't get to sing that much. Headed to Simin Mummy's house after that :) Had class bbq through the night, then daddy came to fetch me & tongpang-ed a few others home :) It was a well spent day, really, I had so much fun singing/talking/walking in the semi-deep swimming pool with the others. My classmates rock :D
Thursday was spent, uh, out with my sister & mother :) Finally brought my sis to watch her promised HSM 3 after her exams! She scored amazingly well, hmmm. Anyway, watching HSM3 for the 2nd time was surprisingly interesting, still. The songs are good.
Alrightyyyyy, I'm gonna go swimming now wheeeee! On a totally random note, I love love love love love love DBSK :D :D Omg, I managed to get 2 magazines with them last night, & they cost only $6, & there're 2 posters of them inside, one being extremely mega huge muahahahaha. Their looks are the bonus, cos the best part is their voice, but to top everything off awesomely is their adorkable character :D Lovely, I'd say. I feel like a self-amusing maniac suddenly, so uh, bye :D
Anyway! After OP on Tuesday, we had class lunch at Parkway! Then some of the girls had last min plans to go Simin Mummy's house to swim, while the rest of us went to PS to catch a movie (: The guys, uh, went LAN-ing. Vui, Peiyi, Vivian, Yvonne, Debby & I watched Sing to the Dawn, & omg, it was so damn lame. Gosh, it sent Debby slapping her forehead quite a few times, hahaha! Damn amusing. Other than the lovely singing inside the movie, Please Don't Watch It. We walked around & all, spent time talking & went to eat Gelare (: Saw quite a few RJ friends around!
Then on Wednesday, Grace Debby Peiyi Victor & I went Kbox after handing in the GPF :D Gosh, it was funnnnn! Too bad time passed too fast & we didn't get to sing that much. Headed to Simin Mummy's house after that :) Had class bbq through the night, then daddy came to fetch me & tongpang-ed a few others home :) It was a well spent day, really, I had so much fun singing/talking/walking in the semi-deep swimming pool with the others. My classmates rock :D
Thursday was spent, uh, out with my sister & mother :) Finally brought my sis to watch her promised HSM 3 after her exams! She scored amazingly well, hmmm. Anyway, watching HSM3 for the 2nd time was surprisingly interesting, still. The songs are good.
Alrightyyyyy, I'm gonna go swimming now wheeeee! On a totally random note, I love love love love love love DBSK :D :D Omg, I managed to get 2 magazines with them last night, & they cost only $6, & there're 2 posters of them inside, one being extremely mega huge muahahahaha. Their looks are the bonus, cos the best part is their voice, but to top everything off awesomely is their adorkable character :D Lovely, I'd say. I feel like a self-amusing maniac suddenly, so uh, bye :D
11:24 AM
Tuesday, October 28, 2008
I'm back here again, with nothing else to do but plainly waiting for time to pass....Zzzzzz I'm so sleepy & my vision is clouded, cos I'm like dizzy with exhaustion zzzzzzzz. Not to mention that I fell asleep but decided to drag myself up anyway. The only reason why I'm staying up's to wish dearest Olivia happy birthday, so if I collapse & fall asleep halfway & miss 12am I'm so gonna kill myself. Zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz. Time's creeping very slowly, & I've no strength to do other things & pass time, ohnozzzzzzzzzzzz.
10:29 PM
Who loves you more to let you go?
I'm feeling very, very sleepy now, after massive insomnia & a heavy dosage of dbsk eycandies last night. Dbsk made me very happy, though :D Watching them never fail to make me smile in front of the laptop, heeheee. Anyway, so tdy comprised of harmoc meeting, pw, & hanging out with Hoho + Woong :) :) I really love spending time with them two. Was with Hoho first, where we talked & acted weirdly cos we're both feeling out of place today. Then started playing Hangman with her at Macs, HAHA :D Woong joined us later, & we continued playing :D Stayed there for 1-2 hours + having fun :D It really is quality time spent with friends :) Totally ended my day out with bunches of laughter, yipee! Which explains why I'm thoroughly spent now. Must zzzzz early tonighttttt! Pw again in sch tmr :( The only thing that keeps me going, though, is my wonderful lovely PW mates :D Alrightyyyyy I'm gonna go watch videos/read now byeeezzzzzzzzzzz
I'm feeling very, very sleepy now, after massive insomnia & a heavy dosage of dbsk eycandies last night. Dbsk made me very happy, though :D Watching them never fail to make me smile in front of the laptop, heeheee. Anyway, so tdy comprised of harmoc meeting, pw, & hanging out with Hoho + Woong :) :) I really love spending time with them two. Was with Hoho first, where we talked & acted weirdly cos we're both feeling out of place today. Then started playing Hangman with her at Macs, HAHA :D Woong joined us later, & we continued playing :D Stayed there for 1-2 hours + having fun :D It really is quality time spent with friends :) Totally ended my day out with bunches of laughter, yipee! Which explains why I'm thoroughly spent now. Must zzzzz early tonighttttt! Pw again in sch tmr :( The only thing that keeps me going, though, is my wonderful lovely PW mates :D Alrightyyyyy I'm gonna go watch videos/read now byeeezzzzzzzzzzz
7:02 PM
Monday, October 27, 2008
Don't make this easy, I want you to mean it
Hello hello :D I just had a veryy refreshing bath after a trip to the gym :D Feels wonderfulllll. Anyway, it's been a 3-day long weekend, & I've broken a record in months for not meeting up with friends throughout the whole weekend, in an attempt to save some money. Going out now equals to movies, shopping, buying even more books, impulse buys on CDs, stuffs with DBSK & all. So, staying at home's the best. (: Things spent on are all paid by the parents, hahaha. It's been quite eventful too, though! I finally learnt to change the water in the fish tank, clean the aircon, etc etc. Anyway, my family had a really interesting conversation today when we were outside the door, home from Compass Point. My bro, mum & I were disturbing each other verbally, you know, like ka jiao-ing each other.
Daddy: Aiyo, stop it lah y'all. So noisy. See, only the youngest (my sis) & the oldest (himself) know how to behave. -shakes head
Brother: Aiyah, y'know why? Cos the youngest is stupid & the oldest got no energy.
Me: =___________= (for a while before cracking up in uncontrollable laughter)
My mum started laughing like crazy too hahaha. Gosh. My brother sucks :O He's such an idiot!
I realised I still haven't uploaded the photos on the lovely night out at Clarke Quay with the others (Peiyi Vuiyung Grace Vivian Debby) yet, but I'm stilll too lazy to drag myself to do it. Some other time this week :D Gotta say that that was one of my best nights ever. I mean, how often do I ever get a chance to stay till 12pm+ out in the streets, romping through clothes at Club Marc (HAHA the others were so excited) & being able to see all kinds of ppl - alot ang mohs. Not forgetting to mention that there was this super hot guy preparingseemingly lethal alcohol concoctions in one of the bars, hahaha. It was qte scary too actually, abit dangerous! Sleeping over at the hotel was funnnn :)
Think I need to start hitting the boooks soooon! Sigh, what a sad life. On another note, I'd be glad if I could get a holiday job & earn some money, just so I can splurge abit more during the Korea trip :D I can just imagine how much cheaper the DBSK things there are, because apparently, before an album reaches Singapore, it has to go through long phases. Firstly, it's imported to Taiwan, before it reaches Singapore, because they have to do screening on its contents & all sorts of red tape stuffs. Pathetic :( That's why the Mirotic album hasn't even hit stores in Singapore yet.
Okay, blogging really feels as if I'm talking to myself. I'm just gonna stop my ramblings here, off to read some more :) SEEYOU.
Hello hello :D I just had a veryy refreshing bath after a trip to the gym :D Feels wonderfulllll. Anyway, it's been a 3-day long weekend, & I've broken a record in months for not meeting up with friends throughout the whole weekend, in an attempt to save some money. Going out now equals to movies, shopping, buying even more books, impulse buys on CDs, stuffs with DBSK & all. So, staying at home's the best. (: Things spent on are all paid by the parents, hahaha. It's been quite eventful too, though! I finally learnt to change the water in the fish tank, clean the aircon, etc etc. Anyway, my family had a really interesting conversation today when we were outside the door, home from Compass Point. My bro, mum & I were disturbing each other verbally, you know, like ka jiao-ing each other.
Daddy: Aiyo, stop it lah y'all. So noisy. See, only the youngest (my sis) & the oldest (himself) know how to behave. -shakes head
Brother: Aiyah, y'know why? Cos the youngest is stupid & the oldest got no energy.
Me: =___________= (for a while before cracking up in uncontrollable laughter)
My mum started laughing like crazy too hahaha. Gosh. My brother sucks :O He's such an idiot!
I realised I still haven't uploaded the photos on the lovely night out at Clarke Quay with the others (Peiyi Vuiyung Grace Vivian Debby) yet, but I'm stilll too lazy to drag myself to do it. Some other time this week :D Gotta say that that was one of my best nights ever. I mean, how often do I ever get a chance to stay till 12pm+ out in the streets, romping through clothes at Club Marc (HAHA the others were so excited) & being able to see all kinds of ppl - alot ang mohs. Not forgetting to mention that there was this super hot guy preparing
Think I need to start hitting the boooks soooon! Sigh, what a sad life. On another note, I'd be glad if I could get a holiday job & earn some money, just so I can splurge abit more during the Korea trip :D I can just imagine how much cheaper the DBSK things there are, because apparently, before an album reaches Singapore, it has to go through long phases. Firstly, it's imported to Taiwan, before it reaches Singapore, because they have to do screening on its contents & all sorts of red tape stuffs. Pathetic :( That's why the Mirotic album hasn't even hit stores in Singapore yet.
Okay, blogging really feels as if I'm talking to myself. I'm just gonna stop my ramblings here, off to read some more :) SEEYOU.
9:06 PM
Friday, October 24, 2008
I'VE FINALLY FINISHED REVAMPING THE HARMOC BLOG :D Ohman I feel so happy & proud of myself :D Hahahaha looks like um I haven't really forgotten html stuffs entirely (aft moving to livejournal)
http://vjcharmoc.blogspot.com/
Look look go seee :D
YIPPEEEEEEEEEE. (Except that my back's aching really qte badly now)
High school musical 3 with Hoho & Woong later (because it's 12:46am & it's already fridayyyyy) I can't wait to watch all that silly cheesyness :D
http://vjcharmoc.blogspot.com/
Look look go seee :D
YIPPEEEEEEEEEE. (Except that my back's aching really qte badly now)
High school musical 3 with Hoho & Woong later (because it's 12:46am & it's already fridayyyyy) I can't wait to watch all that silly cheesyness :D
12:39 AM
Thursday, October 23, 2008
I realised that the blogger system for uploading photos is so much more convenient. Makes me want to stay put here instead of going back to lj...(very often, resizing pics there screws up its whole resolution).
Teacher's Day! (VJ & SN)
4Justice Class BBQ (aft Prrrrromooosss)
OKAY that was like, alot! Took up quite some time (With me shuffling between doing others things too heehee) Shall upload on the night out at Clarke Quay later or tmr. (:
So, anyway, here are some of the photos taken over the past 2-3 months or so...(: It'd probably take qte long to do the post, but for memory's sake, it's all worth it Which reminds me that I should start developing more photos already. Ah right, pic spam starts hereeeeeeeeee:
Kelly's chalet!
Teacher's Day! (VJ & SN)
Jazz & Yongyi's Bday Celebration at Glass House
(Super long ago I think)
4Justice Class BBQ (aft Prrrrromooosss)
OKAY that was like, alot! Took up quite some time (With me shuffling between doing others things too heehee) Shall upload on the night out at Clarke Quay later or tmr. (:
9:52 AM
Tuesday, October 21, 2008
I've decided to blog here temporarily, because my livejournal's been dead for more than almost a month now. I feel like crap now, rotten to the max & down to the extreme. I can't believe I just can't be as strong as I want to be. This is the n(th) time I've broken down for the entire month after promos ended, & I've decided to finally write it down somewhere to vent everything once & for all. My mum makes me feel like crap, & it doesn't help that she seems to give in to my brother & sister much more than she does to me. I know I sound stupid & immature, since I'm the eldest child & I Should Be More Understanding. Still, there's no need to demean me like I'm worthless. I mean, I've been trying to hold myself back whenever she becomes unreasonable, but there are times when the emotions threaten to burst at the seams & I can't help but explode at her. Y'know, like, "haven't you had enough of this" & words like that. I'm tired, really, I am. I try not to cry, but I always fail. Always. I wish I could be stronger, no matter how stupid & ridiculously cliche it sounds. I feel worthless, & it gets hard trying to fight the urge to just hit myself somewhere to get rid of the sourness inside my heart. I don't know how long fights like these are gonna continue throughout my life, cos I'm not certain I can continue getting used to it. Physical pain don't matter anymore, y'know? Emotional pain hurts so much more. I just wish I had a better temper, be ridiculously gentle understanding submissive and all that kind of crap she wants in a daughter. She never seems to understand that I'll never be like that, & I'll never change myself to be like that.
I don't know if it's just me, or it really is that I've become defensive really easily. I tend to snap at people, or feel just a little too disappointed & all when I don't do things right, or when people undermine me. Damn, it's probably a result of all that criticising & demeaning since young. It sucks when your parents don't have faith in you, y'know that? You just gotta find all that back yourself.
I hate crying, because it's pathetic. Really.
& it makes me wonder if anyone'd feel a genuine sense of loss if I ever left this ugly, fake world.
I don't know if it's just me, or it really is that I've become defensive really easily. I tend to snap at people, or feel just a little too disappointed & all when I don't do things right, or when people undermine me. Damn, it's probably a result of all that criticising & demeaning since young. It sucks when your parents don't have faith in you, y'know that? You just gotta find all that back yourself.
I hate crying, because it's pathetic. Really.
& it makes me wonder if anyone'd feel a genuine sense of loss if I ever left this ugly, fake world.
11:24 PM